hello baby,

happy 13th monthsary baby! i hope you're okay now and im very sorry for what i've done. i can only summarize my heartaches & pains through 3 words. and i`ll tell you again that these 3 words means a lot. im sorry if i hurt you, im sorry if i made you cry, im sorry if i lied. im sorry if i treated you bad. now im the one feeling bad. now if you dont accept my apology ..then thats okay i just wanted you to know that i still love you baby, i love you more than anyone you know that and i`ll never stop loving you. just please do not doubt my love for you even though my actions may have undermined my words. so i`ll try to make things up to you. i will embrace my feelings and internalize my thoughts and manifesting them into actions so there will be no more questions. i am always here for you and i hope that the same holds true for life is not worth living if it has to be lived without you. everyday is a struggle we're fighting and a struggle we'll fight till the end for i have nothing to worry because i got you and you got me. we`ll face them together bravely.  i love you! i love you very much! sorry if i can't help saying these words to you. oh baby you are my reason for my every whys. the day we argue was the day i died, every word that comes from your mouth slowly breaks my heart. baby, you and i can't show that we are vulnerable, we are each others strength. your strength gives me strength too. why dont we give ourselves another try to fix things up. but then you have warned me that soon you'll be breaking my heart ..again. i know at that time you are not on the mood or making a joke either. well, it doesn't feel right at all i will not pretend. honestly its gonna hurt but i dont know maybe i will shut my eyes so i wont see hurt coming to me. if you really want to do that to me then i will be willing to take the fall. so i hope that you soon come to see, your happiness really means a lot to me but my heart will be forever aching you can't take it away so easily. but i guess sacrificing is what love is. right? and i hope after all of this you will be happy. that's all. happy monthsary. love you.